Crap~

Yesterday I had my presentation, not the first but apparently I failed bcoz Im way tooooooooooo nervous~ 

I can even feel the dryness of my throat while I'm speaking in front.

It's not the subject that I'm confident in, may be the reason.

BTW, I'm just blogging because I wan to utilize my time. 

12 minutes til next class and I can't do anything.

I had done my due-ing assgn and 12 minutes aren't enough for me to start the next due-ing one.

And I'm so sleepy.... ==zzz

Its 10 minute to class now.

I think I should get some energetic drink.

So yea. Tata!

::FIN::

<< God Only Knows >>

Chapter 1
What I'm seeing... is it real?
What I'm feeling... is it real?
What I'm doing... is it real?

There is no regrets, satisfy my curiosities
There is a new world waiting, explore my possibilities
There is no guarantee, just improve my abilities
(Go ahead with your own life - Is there any hope in your sight?)
There is a choice to make, setting the right priorities
(You will always be the one, so feel the power
And you should know the sun comes up - For you)

There is no regrets, satisfy my curiosities
There is a new world waiting, explore my possibilities
There is no guarantee, just improve my abilities
There is a choice to make, setting the right priorities

Chapter 2
(What is the best you can do? How can you do?)
I was sitting and thinking the other day
(What is the best you can do? How can you do?)
If I fail, I won't throw my passion away
(What is the best you can do? How can you do?)
Just 'cause giving up is not the only way
No matter how it's gonna be, I'll try it anyway

Chapter 3
Love is such a sweet illusion (Let's come together)
Can't seem to stop my imagination (Goes on forever)
What a ridiculous situation (Another matter)
But I can't deny, I'm faced with a tricky temptation

In the world that keeps on changing
Don't know why my heart is aching
Gotta handle it, no more hesitation
There can be no turning back

God only knows
"My mind is as free as the wind.
But now what I should do is to fall in love"

God only knows
"I don't need that kind of real things
Feels like I'm lost in the labyrinth"

God only knows
"There must be the meaning of life
Somehow unexpected happenings thrill me"

God only knows
"Just believe in myself and my dream
Anyone could be a hero and heroine"

God only knows
"Though it's not so easy to get through
Here I am, I'm sure that things will go my way"

God only knows
"My mind is as free as the wind.
But now what I should do is to fall in love"

God only knows (Your own happiness, you can find it)
"I don't need that kind of real things
Feels like I'm lost in the labyrinth"

God only knows (Your infinity, you can feel it)
"There must be the meaning of life
Somehow unexpected happenings thrill me"

God only knows (Opportunity, you can take it)
"Just believe in myself and my dream
Anyone could be a hero and heroine"

God only knows (Toward the future, you can make it)
"Though it's not so easy to get through
Here I am, I'm sure that things will go my way"

Chapter 4
(Sailing, you're sailing away
And now it's blowing, breeze will take you away)

I feel that my spirits rise
I will survive and just stay alive
Enjoy being alone, the isolation is not always so bad
Another day has gone by, every day goes by
In the sky there'd be a bridge to a bright tomorrow

(You will find your treasure and share your pleasure
Let me tell you...)

Chapter 5
(Just keep your vision, your dream and your soul alive
Be as you are, I will always be right by your side)

Think about my love and my life
In an uncertain world, face to face with myself
Continue to make progress, day by day and step by step
I've got a good feeling
So I'm gonna keep on trying, life will go on...

 

Performed by 

Elisa a.k.a. Oratorio The World God Only Knows

 

 

::FIN::

 

p/s I miss all the japanese stuffs~ Nippon, please be well!!

The Border

Hi. How's ur day? Hope it goes well. :) Mine still normal, going to be a siao lang soon. Hmm~ I guess it's usual since LATE is going to stick with me.

I realized I'm being really negative nowadays. 'Coz I care too much. Yeap. I care everything too much. From my mom's perspective, it's called narrow-minded. I never realized the virus is back haunting me again. Without me noticing, it's going worse.

I feel like COL. It's so hard to take everything up and keep it with me. Shouldn't have care for something that is totally worthless. Think too much, can be a big problem too. *grin* And yet, I still dislike it. Dislike those things that makes me felt miserable. Along my way, they keep hindering me. I fell. It's a pain.

Standing at the border line of survive and be a living dead person, I'm struggling.

Why choose? Why suffer? Why this and that???

It's for my own good, I told myself. Every step I take should be firm and strong. Just like what the instructor told us, don't relax when you shouldn't. If you did, you will be forcing yourself unconsciously and at last, you'll get hurt.

Yes, it's going to be painful now but that's okay.. Pain is temporary. But death is forever. I wouldn't allow my life to have too much regrets. How do I know? The future is not to seen or predictable. Maybe the next second I'll lost my conscious. When I think back my life, at least... AT LEAST, let me see that I've live well.

Despite those shadows, the lights are there for me.

::FIN::

Fair and Dilemma

Hi dearies~ I'm blogging again. Ended class long time ago (seems like) but still have to wait long to go back.

Anyway~~ That's not what I intended to blog about. "Fair and Dilemma". Sounds pretty much like a book title. (U thinking wad im thinking? O.o) Back to the topic....

It's actually about grouping. Yes. GROUPING.

As usual, most activities LOVE to ask people to group themselves up and be a BIG family (Singing: I love u, You love me, We are happy family~) my units too are not the exceptional types. If I get into a good team, that's TOTALLY fine, you see? Good team, good leader, we acted really like a family protecting and defending each other. It's fun and loving and warm. U can feel the friendliness and the success tasted like a heavenly sweet fruit.

But I really don't know why most of the time when I get into those bad ones, I kinda have the instinct of "Shyte! Now I'm going to work double hard to have OUR good life." I'm not one of those Gods, for what I'm doing this? To worsen my already bad and hectic study life?! I know I shouldn't think like this. SHOULD NOT at all.

But forgive me. 

All these while, I really REALLY really have VERY very very bad experience with group works.

I don't know how the rest of the members can allow that!! How come they are not furious? Some slackers are taking advantage of our piece of work and at the end! They got our credits too. It's really a heartbreak. Even if at the end, when that piece came in as HD, I felt really uneasy. Fruit taste? Just...forget about it. Taste nothing is way better than tasting shyte. >///////<|||||

PEOPLE! If you're reading this right now, I'm asking for neither sympathy nor critics (if any), JUST ONE THING I plead you to remember:

NEVER EVER TRY TO BE SOME BASTARDS AND TAKE YOUR MEMBERS' WORKS FOR GRANTED!

You may think it's okay then you're OBVIOUSLY wrong! Nobody likes to be some fools working their ass off, for you to sit back and enjoy ur damn life. NOBODY! 

For God sake, take back whatever excuse you have and just tell the truth. Dont think ur members are stupid enough for taking ur so FAKE excuse to be true and sympathize you. You forget, just apologize and said you had forgotten and there'll b no next time. NO MORE FOOD POISONING please, I tell you. 

FYI, you're not the first one to claim that.

::FIN::

Things just get tougher, dont they?

I drove myself to school today. I know, maybe to you its not a big deal. But. To me, it is.
Knowing the fact that my driving skill is surprisingly poor (i dont know why either), i had driven to uni and back home safe and sound. Haha. Not quite proud to say that, im just lucky because nobody hits me.
My phather stop interact with me because of my intention. I wonder how the others' phather reacts when their kids started to ask for the same thing that i did. Almost all of my family members disagree with my decision. But then I would never learn! I know I still weak now. Okay, I dont wanna blame much but as someone who's more experienced and a guardian, you should guide instead of hinder. Anyway, at least now I had a good start, I shall believe Im going to make it through too. :)
Remember about my improve grades thing? I think I really should start now. When I flipped through my planner, I found that this sem, im gonna have 6 assignments, unknown presentations and one test in less than 3 months time. After that, it's gonna be final AGAIN. Haaaizz. God bless~ >o<

::FIN::

Back to School

Oooookay~ Hurray, Im finally back to school! xD 

(I swore i heard someone said "OMG"~) 

 
Seriously, my holiday's getting boring towards the end. Really boring.
And my parents (especially mua phather ==") started their "always those same words" lecture. Like a two bumble bees flying around my head. Lolx!

However, 

back to school = Lecture + Assignments + Tutorial + Exam (L.A.T.E.) = busy = stress = no sleep

TT^TT 

And! I know I'm getting worse grades compared to my previous years.
I really should pay attention to it now before it gets worse. X__x

Lastly, wish me all the best and also all the best to all of you too. Hehes!

::FIN::