心情论 - 现在的我

很忧郁……

开始上学后的心情渐渐变差。
也许是不够睡。
也许是功课过于沉重 。
也许是生病的原因。
也许没有了出去玩的时间。
也许是四周围影响的因素。

现在的我总觉得我好像被无形的线给绑住了。
想向前走，可是其实我一直只是在原地踏步。
那种原地踏步的感觉。很怕。。。

不只是因为原地踏步，也是因为我发现到没有人来救我。
没有人。。。
开口喊，得到的回应只有同情的围观和令我颤抖的冷眼。
而我奢求的，只是一只手，一只拉我走出困境的手。

退缩。
厌烦。
颓废。
一个人。
想解脱。


一句话来讲，现在的心情亦只有一个词来形容。

郁闷。
超级郁闷的那种。

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Busy vs. Free

I've to admit that i was quite busy since school started... lectures, tutorials, assignments etc. but sometimes i felt otherwise~ too free... E.g. i log into facebook and can just stare at the home page for 7 minutes and more by refreshing it again and again... I dunno how i became like that~ such a weirdo and a fool.
Actually i planned to do my assignment now but i came blogged instead, sigh~
"No mood to do my assignment~" what an excuse... =_=
 Just now, i was like go around my friends' blog and felt that they are so busy about their stuffs.....
While i was so free to write a post here.... hehe~
Busy vs. Free, what i gain is ONLY LONELY.

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Assignment T_T

Since uni, i start to develop some feeling of hatred towards assignments...
To express how miserable i am because of them, i decide to tell you how i interpret the word "assignment"...

Assignment
An English word.
Proper (somehow fancy) definition: "something that has been assigned, such as a mission or task"

My interpretation of assignment:
An English word....
combined with ass, sigh, ment....

Ass: why? AHAH! do u realized that u can abbreviate assignment as A-S-S? XP
Cant believe that I've to work my ass off for them!!! and now mutating into a zombie due to the sleep-less (i.e. not enough sleep) nights because of them!!!! I hate being a zombie ok??! >o<

Sigh: *haizz* of course i sighed when i get my assignments.... >_< because i have totally no idea on how to do and realized that everyone is also the same like me *blurr* GOSH!!!!! looking at the piece of assignment questions, i feel like tossing them into the recycle bin~ and pretend not to have them from the very beginning.... *haizz* im day-dreaming~

Ment: in Hungarian language, it means to rescue~ i was hoping someone to rescue me from being tortured by assignments~~ \(>o<)/ HELPPPP~~!!!!!!! I dont wan you, effing ASSIGNMENT!!


Attention! The above interpretation is purely a ranting of mine and its for expressing my misery T^T purpose only...

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A random day...but still its another hard day..XP

Its the 2nd week of skul~ and im still very blurry here n thr..anyway nw, i still tried hard to catch up *no easy job u noe XS* some frens switch to other so-called easier subject coz they cant understand at all..bt i still stick to my initial plan...even though im alone~ ;p for only 1 class, lolx. i dun wan 2simply change my plan juz bcoz some frens switched, i mean, no point juz blindly followed other ppl's decision when u've already planned for it, rite?So im hoping tat i can catch up soon~ wish me luck la, k? =)

Today, after skul, i went to library wif my sis, n sit at the pc zone...so coincidentally i met Marsha, a senior, members in the same club last year and oso we've worked 2gether bfore in the sun-u anime event-- Animangaki. Actually i first heard her voice, and i think it sounds familiar~ i tried to look at her face (haha~scare tat if i recognized the wrong person then very embarrassing lo.) and her fren who sitting bside her look bac at me.. so i kinda dun dare to look and then i peek her from the barrier(i dunno wat to call tat thg so yea~) then, im still nt sure..so i decided to call her name n if she din respond to my call, i'll juz turn n look for my sis sitting nearby. "Marsha!" i called. then, YES, she responded n we start a little conversation bout my uni life.. luckily, i din recognized da wrong ppl. hehe~ im quite happy to see her oso, coz now i can hardly see any1 familiar...some fly overseas/go outstation, some different faculties, some goes different skuls and some cant meet at all~~

gonna off to do my assignments ady~ =.= all da best to all my frens and of course gd luck 2 myself too! :D
Cheers!

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L-A-Z-Y

Im going to write a short post here...to confess something~
*WARNING! this is a stupid self reminder, so if u think its lame, please ignore this post straight away~!*

I was so wrong thinking that everything will goes well...
I was so wrong to think i can survive without working hard...
I was wrong...and now so helpless...
I thought i can work it out some way~
I thought i can enjoy my life somehow~

I thought and im so wrong!

This is not what i wanted from the start...i dun even know why things go on this way...
My mom said i became so lazy over the long holiday...and i think she was right.

This short post here is to remind myself...step onto the right path and wish myself not to go on like this anymore~

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1st day of uni life =.= BLUR BLUR~~

6am in the morning....
my handphone started to play "music", waking me up... *still blur blur XD* looking at the time [06:00], my finger unconsciously press "snooze", ;p

6+ in the morning...
okay, im awake! im awake! i...i'm a~wake~ *yawn n continue to hypnotize myself...with my eyes closed~ =.=*

7++ in the morning...
reached uni without fail...1st class--acc--audi...i walked straight to the audi....but the door was locked = forced to wait outside... no familiar people around so i juz pretend to look at the notice board...LOL

8+ in the morning...
my acc lecturer, Mr.Narayan, starts lecturing without introducing himself ( i know his name bcoz he logged into the pc with his last name as username O.o)... he started off with a question "what is acc?.....*blablabla*" then my brain slowly n unconsciously switch to BLUR mode... my eyes were half-closed ady =.= (haizz..i noe.. im a bad student >.<) after class, almost everyone rushed to the bookstore to buy textbooks... the uni suddenly change the textbooks to second or newer edition, so v cant buy the 2nd hand book T.T

11++ in the morning...
rushed to the bus stop to wait for shuttle so to get my LAN syllabus --actually i hv the opt to walk thr...but walk under such a hot weather? uh ah~ i dun think so XP-- rush rush rush to the student service dept, get my transcripts certified, n then rush rush rush (is near lunch hour ady n i dun wanna wait) to the registry, get my certified syllabus...

12+ in the afternoon...
after getting the LAN exemption thingy done, i meet up with my sis to hv lunch together... then, head to the marketing tutorial class together (haha, my sis chose marketing as one of her elective subjects even though she is taking science course, i picked the same subject and purposely allocate the same time slot with her so v can study in the same class..XD)
our marketing tutor who is also our lecturer, Ms. Crystal, is quite a humorous woman(based on my first impression ^^) Well, at least now i dun feel that BLUR anymore... and when she asked "Who's year 1 sem 1's student?", i suddenly realized that im the ONLY ONE in the class.. the rest were either yr1 sem2 or above. She asked my name and tell the rest "seniors" to "take care" of me..HaHa..*shy =O,O=*
in the middle of the class, she was trying to give an example on somethg somethg, she refer me n my sis "now, lets say this girl n this girl are very good friend.."  my sis replied "actually we're sisters, im the elder 1 and she's the younger..." Then, she was stupefied n the whole class was like looking our way...out of shock i guess...n said "wow~~ you guys dun looks like sisters...*then continue to giv example referring us as -friends-*" Err.. kinda embarrassing...like the whole class was looking at you coz you throw some shock news thr. XD

1+ in the afternoon...
i went to computer lab located in Building 9 straight after the tutorial. i've been thr thrice b4 today so i reached thr quite fast without being lost~ Since my makt. class ends early n some ppl n a male tutor were using the lab so i just stand outside the comp lab n wait. our tutor, Ms. Jane arrived and was surprised to see some1 occupying our lab. then, after one of the boys from my class spoke to the male tutor, the man checked his timetable and suddenly realized that he went into the wrong lab while most of his students were in the "right" lab waiting for his arrival...LOL

4 in the afternoon...
Hah~~~ finally today's class is over! went to building 2 to hav photo session for my student id. luckily i was one step ahead coz if i came in 2minutes later, i'll crashed with a long queue.. o.<
i waited till my number was being called, then handed my form to the guy responsible for taking photos..he was so funny.. asking me to "smile! smile more! keep smiling!" despite i was actually smiling..he makes me laugh instead. XP

5+ in the evening...
reached home...exhausted~ i never knew the 1st day was like tat...well, luckily 2moro im off! so i can sleep as much as i want~ hopefully my second day of uni life, i wont be that BLUR like today~

signing off...tata! =)

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