Quite surprised. lolx. You see, we are just "Hi-Bye" friends i.e. not close ones,and..
I've never received any call nor a single sms from her before (or specifically, we dont even have each other number XD). So yea..
Maybe you would realized now, today's post will be regarding her first call to me.
(Sorry to my buddies who may called/sms-ed me for hundreds or thousands times before and I didn't write about it, LOL, dont be mad, k? :] )
Back to the topic...
Ring..Ring...Ring...(i actually put my phone in silent mode so its vibrating instead, anyway~thats not an issue.)
"Hello?" This is me.
"He-lo? Is this (my name)?" The caller.
"Yea? Who's on the line?" First time caller, no contact shown, didn't recognize her voice.
"Is me, (caller's name)."
"Owhh~" Curious. "Ok, what's up?" Positive tone.
"Erm. Can you send me your weekly assignment? I need it. Or you can send me all your assignments..."
Stunned. "ALL??!" I was rather sure that i raised my voice. :P
"Erm, ya? Then I dont have to call you every week to ask you to send me mar.." Sounds pretty annoyed to me.
[Sorry, I hold on my own principles pretty firmly in my life, and this is way out from my margin.]
Though i felt uneasy, still, manners shall be prioritized at any circumstances.
"I can send you this week one.."And this week assignment should be done on own already, any excuse is not applicable, except Lazy.
I mean, this stuff is difficult, true but hey, when i did the assignment, I did my own research and work really hard on it, and i can proudly tell everyone in this whole world that i deserved my marks for doing my own work, and now you are asking for every piece of sweat, tears + those sleep-lack nights works that i've done, isnt' it too over?
I decided to reject her wish, well, there's no such thing as a free lunch in this world (this doesn't mean that i'm selling my works, NO. It means you have to pay "hardwork" for "HD/D/Good grade" i.e. whatever you really wish to comes true.)
"..but will I do harm to you in future? If i sent you everything?"
"......" for a second, ".. It's okay then, just send me this week's one will do. Thanks."
"Ok. Bye."
I know I've been quite harsh to reject something, and this is one thing that I always feel uncomfortable to do it. Aihs. Will I ever learn to say "No" in such situation? Which may end up being worse? Connections falling apart? *My brain thinks a lot, most of the time, as usual.* ;'(
In Facebook, she asked me where I would sent the thing, and said a weird line:
"Thx for reminding me.."
I was like "huh???" then I replied,
"Reminding?? O.o Did I?"
Then she replied again,
"Ya.. thx for reminding me tht i've to do it on my own. Thx."
"......."
I felt sorry...seriously.
I mean, the reminder is actually a polite "smoke bomb" for my selfishness.
The sentence is true but it comes from my brain instead of my heart.
Well, at least it ended up to be a harmony conclusion.
(Should I feel glad for it? I think there's no answer 'cos this is what it had became.)
But who knows?
Maybe down in the deep heart core, there's some changes within.
Since the problems in life will never disappear as I wish,
I'll just make the problem not a problem anymore
by thinking it's not a BIG deal.
That way, I can live more happily, isn't it? :]
Yea.. I shall not think too much~
Focus on my coming assignments and tests is more important, huh? *giggle*
Focus on my coming assignments and tests is more important, huh? *giggle*
::FIN::
p/s Actually such situation is not new (though its really RARE) to me. XD but seriously, this is the first time ever that someone thank me for saying that. Probably that's the main reason which urges me to write about it. Whoa~ This is a loooooooooooooooooooong post. Sorry if I've bored you out with my lame-ness. *wink*
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