Sienz Ar Sienz

The title looks a bit like foreign language if you don't understand Rojak language. *grin*

Hi blog! I'm here again~ Implying that I'm too free to do nothing. Currently I'm no more a student, not yet a graduate, and unemployed - a michong (米虫). It's very sienz (Hokkien: boring) staying like a michong... Sadly, I'm gonna live like this until I have further plans. Whatever plan will do, as long as I want it.

Talking about plans, actually I do did have a holiday to-do-planning. Nonetheless, as days had passed, none of them seem like coming true. LOL A lot of factors involved and srsly I doesn't want to discuss 'em here. The main issue of all is, I'm doing myself a lip service. Didn't put effort more than that to execute the plan. Thus, I envy my siblings, they seems....busy.

Pardon my stupid complaint/bragging, emptiness can drive me somewhat mad sometimes, especially late at night and I can't push myself to sleep early (and be a good kid). [Hey! I ain't a kid anymore. So sad~ Whatever..] Forget about this after you read, I'm used to be be ignored anyway. (you must have thought you wasted your time reading, in fact I'm wasting mine to write this lol Fair enough? I guess.) Haha..

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Okay, something for sharing in case someone decided to throw me rotten eggs and stones for the mumbling above. I watched this anime <Kids on the Slope> over my SWOT (aka study for exam) week. I found its OST truly amusing, the jazz pieces impressed me, if I was given one word to describe it, it would be love <3

This song is one of my favorites found in the OST - <Lullaby of Birdland>. The original song is indeed an oldies (very old one because the anime set its time at the 60s) but this covered version is so beautiful! *hearts* The singer is a Japanese but I guess you won't figure it out if you had only listen to the song.

Now, sit back Now, load, sit back and enjoy the song. :)

Lullaby of Birdland

Covered by Teshima Aoi

 From the <Sakamichi no Apollon> OST

Lyrics:

'Lullaby of Birdland', that's what I

always hear, when you sigh

Never in my woodland

Could there be words to reveal 

in a phrase how I feel.

Have you ever heard two turtle doves

bill and coo when they love

That's the kind of magic music

we make with our lips, when we kiss.

*And there's a weepy ol' willow,

he really knows how to cry...

That's how I'd cry in my pillow,

if you should tell me farewell and goodbye.

'Lullaby of Birdland' whisper low

kiss me sweet and we'll go.

Flyin' high in Birdland

high in the sky up above

We're in love ♥ *

*Repeat*

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It's raining outside now, have a sweet dream, I hope :)

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Lone Conductor ~寂寞导体~

Seems like I just activated my blog recently. *hum*

I tends to come here when I'm feeling down. Warui nee.. Sorry for the negativity. Don't blame a sick people will 'ya~ *cough cough* The phlegm residing in my lungs is giving me a hell lot of pain and trouble. Anything fun is not fun anymore with this condition. Perhaps the one up there in heaven was trying to tell me that I did not suffer enough. Hah! Or that is my body cannot withstand this freedom.. Darn. That's why all these happening when I can finally had some peace..

Losing my voice is not something very favorable. Feel so bad when I can't even finish singing a single song without coughing... That's one of my favorite routines in life! How cruel is that... :'( sob sob~ You know how people tends to think too much when they have nothing to do. I'm fit in that bunch right now. My brain seems to degrade as well. *groan* That's the price I paid for being free. XD

Another thing is I'm always fit in with lonely. I'm becoming more and more friendly with it nowadays. Shikatanai yo ne.. My sisters have their own boys (and other stuffs like work & study) to deal with -- with the exception of my kid sis who's cool about her "still child"-like life. I can hardly ask them to do anything with me. All my friends seems to be enjoying (or not, suffering) their hectic dailies. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing, my friend (in case you're reading), not a single negative idea is intended in any means. You see, I'm just implying that i'm naturally a lone-conductor, and I too enjoy the moments & bits of being alone. ;)

The jazz music playin' in my radio,
the sound of me typing,
the aroma of my favorite tea,
the light shined through the window,
the feel of me being the only existence....
(brake sound)

Too bad.. maybe I just don't have the right atmosphere in my house. None is happening at the lone moment. Instead... =="

The noise as a result of neighbor's house renovation,
the endless argues from the Taiwanese drama (mom's watching),
the smell of owwhh... (strong) AAA-grade Durian (dad's eating),
the light...ning and depressed-looking sky,
the only existence...???
Forget about it please. *roll eyes*

Remember I said I enjoy being alone? Add on!! When the atmosphere is there. This is a little bit about science, conductor only conducts when the right medium is present.

Well.. that's all for today. Signing off.

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Being an A.D.U.L.T.

I officially got myself out of the in-between-teen-n-adult period and now a purely Otono now.

It was the day after my last exam in my three-years uni life.
Now I'm not a student anymoreee.. How weird to think so..
You see, I've been a student like "forever" (since three+) and..
Biung~ Time flies like nobody's business..
When I realized it, I'm free from my student title already.

Tata~ TT_TT My student life~ *wave handkerchief*

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So.. After the stressful session, I went to Genting with my mom n kid sis. Then I went in to a legal casino for the first time in my life. Cool not? (In case you're wondering, no.. I didn't gamble. *Ii ko desu*
I just went in to register for a membership card.) When I tried to go in, the staff stopped me for my ID card. And he looked at the card for some moment as if trying to calculate my age. Rofl~

Then, my mom very -happily- dumped me and my youngest sis to the theme park. Of course, it's something I promised her to do. Keke..
But it was t.i.r.i.n.g.... 
Luckily, my sis was good enough for not giving me trouble all day long.
(or maybe I'm stern enough so she don't dare to do so.. Hiak hiak~)
I'm saying this 'cz u know how small kids can throw tantrums~
(And I seriously cannot stand when a child did this to me. *fire*)

LOLL

We ended up playing quite a number of rides despite our painful, tired legs.. One thing I don't quite like for the theme park to place their attractions too far away. Hard enough for us to find where is the waiting queue. (Especially the indoor park).

Overall it was quite joyful but duh.. This is Msia. The experience definitely differs from the one in JP. Omo.
Most of the staffs were so unfriendly! and they were so blackfaced! (in chinese). I'm so ashamed as a local when some receptionists cannot even speak basic english. =.=|||

The "best" part of the day where I got really heated up is
when I asked for directions, a very "act smart" staff simply told me a WRONG place! Hey! I'm not that freak expecting the staff to definitely know the place but HOW DARE YOU ASK ME TO GO TO A FREAKING DESERT?!! Just tell ppl kindly that you don't know la. Whole day mood ruined by this moron staff. The worst thing is I brought my kid sis running herenthere like 2 phychos. Gomen nee imouto ><

The next day, my mom wanted to follow her friends to some temple walk (which I'm against, all temples look the same to me lolx) but v couldn't catch the shuttle. So plan cancelled. Then, I managed to steal some time for a girl "must do" - S.h.o.p.p.i.n.g.!! There were SALES ongoing! How could I miss that?! HAHA!


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Ohhh... being an adult doesn't really change any facts. Life goes on. I will just go on too. Wish me luck! ♣ ♠ ♥ ♦


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Gomen Nasai :3

Ara... Are you wondering why did I say sorry out of the blue?

Well~ In my last post, I think I promised to write about my Nihon trip.. (YOU DID, A-HO!)

 

GOMEN NASAIIIII~~~!!!! TT_TT

Sorrrrryy nee, the storytelling ermmm.. is postponed. 

(NA-NI?!! DOUSHITE?!)

Yaaaa~~~ Ano ne~~ *pokes fingers together* 

I erm.. going to be quite busy~~ (USOTSUKI.)

HEEEEEI~?! (A-HO! Your fingers were crossed!!!!!)

  

Ara? Sou desu ka?

*speechless*

ERR.. PLEASE FORGIVE ME~!

 *punch* #%!#@$$^ *kick* %*##^#!%$ *hit*

(Phewwww.. You may speak for yourself now..) Mmm..mmm..uuu..mm.m (You want more punch?)

...... TT____TT
No. Sorry~~
I'M JUST LAZY OK??


Uhuhuhu *sob sob* TT_______TT

Now that school began.
I'll be ermm.. even busier to visit you bloggie. (Fists in preparation)

*Cold sweat raining*

So.. Ja nee!

 

UWAWAAAAAAAA!!! *Runs off* TASUKETE!!!!

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Busy life never stop.. Stop=Died?

Dear bloggie,

Life's been kind of busy for me.
Even though my course units had been reduced slightly, it really doesn't mean that my life would be any easier with the same old heavy courseworks all came together...

Plus, I'm working part time since I thought my uni timetable was kinda loose. Which means even less time spent at home and rot.. (It's a good thing though.. Managed to earn some pocket money while studying.)

That contributes to the reason why you (my bloggie) had been experiencing quite a bit of lonesome this half a year. It's okay.. I know you don't cry anyway (tougher than me :P).


Now that I think of, your big day is coming!!
So happened it's going to be my last day of バイトライフ as well.
And then school will commence (Again).
I shall appreciate it this time.
It's, nevertheless, my last semester already.

Time flies, isn't it?
Just a week ago, I attended a friend's farewell. Farewell farewell..
Even though it sounded like "Ohh! It's just one year thing"~
It ended up piercing my heart (a little) that
it will be hard for us to keep in touch as usual now.
Quite melancholic..
Thinking of all my friends since primary, secondary, college, uni...

All of us grew up and please continue to grow well, I wish.
Nothing's gonna stay forever but
I've always hope everything changes for the better.



And oooo...
I think I've never posted something about my Nihon trip isn't it?
It might be late to do so.. (like about 2 months ago already)
But duh! I don't really mind. So you (my bloggie) shouldn't TOO!
Muahahahahaha!!! :D

See you real soon! Tata x3

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The Abandoned

See? I cannot slack. Once slack, forever slacking.. haha!
Resulted "The Abandoned Bloggie".

I'm truly SORRY my bloggie~ Mianhae! >3<

Okay, enough for my apology.
Just a simple update here to my readers.
I wondered if there's any nowadays...
I dont even know what's everybody doing now~ *sob*
I felt a lil bad. I think i'm no good in be-friend someone/everyone.

Keep in touch with everyone sounded easy. Why is it so hard for me?
Well... I think it's my personality. People tends to see me like i dont care them eh?
Actually I'm that type who *stalks* people's update rather than ask them directly.
Now you knows. *winks*

I've been in an short term exchange program during summer semester.
Guess I dont actually have to describe much here 'coz I did posted lotsa pics on fb.
And DO look at the captions!!! Or else u'll have no idea bout my life in SH. Okie dokie?

CNY had past... Valentines Day too... Only a week or so left school is starting again.
Omigawd!!! I'm already in my final year now..
Hmm.. That means~ I gotta start thinking bout my future - career/study/blabla..
WHICH IS SUPER DUPER BOTHERSOME!
I wonder is it too late for me to do an internship~

LIFE~ Y U NO BE MORE EASY FOR ME? Gahhhhhh! X____x
A piece of dead meat thinking about bothersome stuffs.
Lets pray i'll get some idea for it while my study roll on later :3

Bye for now. Sorry for this no-head-no-tail (:meaningless) post.

Reonning Maen (런닝맨)

Dear readers, I had mixed feeling today.

Sad thing is, I think I screwed up my last paper >w<

Happy thing is, I regain my stress-less moments!

So yea.. Nyways, I'm not talking about my mood today. I've got enough "mood" so far.. XD

I did promised to write about this Korean variety show which has been a major cause for my procrastination and my NO.1 stress-reliever recently =)

Reonning Maen /런닝맨 / Running Man

From left to right
Above: Lee Gwang-soo, Yoo Jae-Suk, Song Joong-Ki, Ji Suk-Jin, Kim Jong-Kook
Below: Song Ji-Hyo, Kang Gary, Lizzy, Ha-Ha

Hosted by Yoo Jae Suk along with other cast members. I can't recognize most of the members initially. I just so happened to come across some of the SNSD's videos and found the RM clips on Youtube. The clip is too short so I went googled it to watch the full version. It sooo interesting and so I couldnt stop streaming other episodes.

Another reason that induce me watching this show is Yoo Jae Suk. I've known him from Family Outing and since then, I'm so impressed by his gag show~ Too funny HAHAHAHAAAA!!

Sorry, overly excited again. Btw, now I'm officially a fan of MC Yoo :)

That's why I totally dislike Sparta Kook~ Kim Jong Kook. LOL I know it's just a show.
But I'm totally biased towards Yooruce Willis* lo (*nickname of MC Yoo in games).
And people!! RM Episode 13 is just AWESOMEEEE and so epic!

If you haven watch, please go watch it! It's my BEST episode <3
Yoo Jae Suk incredibly escaped from the arrest of Sparta Kook and complete the mission on his own! I went so crazily happy after I watched that episode~ BIG LOVE. Daebak!!

Yippie!! I better utilize my 2 weeks holiday before summer semester starts. Woots!! Movies and popcorns! Here I comes!!!! Of course, not forgetting my lovey apple green Dell =))

Tata!!

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Hard work not paid off

Haix. Not that I'm exaggerating or what..

I'm so damn SAD bcoz the assignment that cost 40% internally
and I got only a Credit.

It's not like I do last minute work or wadeva.
I finished mine much earlier than the due date.
Summore I let the tutor checked on it
He said "Good! Good!" and what's THIS?

A CREDIT??

All my hardwork for this whole semester just a CREDIT?
Don't tell me I'm "kiasu" (in Hokkien) or what..
I dont effing CARE what's others' marks are.
Like SERIOUSLY.

If the credit is like near 70 also I can accept la
bcause its a group assignment
and I admit that the assignment presentation is not that "aligned"~

But what the hell is that? It's just 4 marks above PASS range!
I effing wanna eff people. *Sorry my mood not very good today*

2 finals papers taken. And both cannot finish on time.
The second one even "better" than the first.
15 minutes left, I'm still working on the second question.
There is like FIVE compulsory questions in total okay?!
Wtf is going on with me?????????

Haiz... Haizz.... Girl, Imma a second year going to be third.
Why is my month so not "soon" (in Hokkien) to me?
Never happened for the past 19+ years.
I cant even sleep for one minute the day b4 my paper.
2 papers. so 2 days. How do I live?
Aigoooooooooooooooo... (in Korean)


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Die hard in exam

This is so me. =="

Exam is so so so so so so so NEAR!

And i'm doing EXACTLY the same things
that are stated in the pic above. LOL

Aigooooooooo..


I can't help. I'm so addicted to Running Man!! <3

Now i'm officially Yoo Jae Suk fan. XD

RM episode 13 is so so so EPIC! *big lovee*

I shall blog about the show later (after my exams *wink*)
So STAY TUNED! ;)

Yaaaahh.. bout my finals.
Surprisingly, my first day is on the Halloween.
So should I wear a wig and make-up and partay in there?


The invigilators are so going to kill me if i did.

Kekekekekeke!!!

YAH! So c ya. Tata!



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*Frus Frus*

Aigooo. Feeling so frus right now. Y is everything so disadvantageous against me? T^T

Medical check again 2mr. :( Second time already, what u want me to expect?

I'm so *frus frus* Haix. Less than one week til first day of finals. Haix.

AHhh!! Jin-ja... TT__________TT

Stressed = Desserts

[Panting]

Haaa huu..Haa

[Wooden sound]
Clak Clak Tum Clak..


Guess what I'm doing
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.
.
.
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.
.


Building S.T.R.E.S.S.
O.o~

I pant 'cos its HEAVY.

Mentally la, of course.

Okay. I mentioned in my last post that finals is around the corner.
Like WTF?! I haven even enjoy my uni life enough and..

The judgement is here already.
*sad*

So i'm building up my stress
Just in case i played too much. =P



And I have a small favour to ask.
.
.
.

Anyone could spare some nice desserts?

You see....
There's actually a reason why people eat desserts when they are stressed.


Yeappp. I dont think so it's coincidence too.

Candies! Candies! I want my Candies!


ケーキ！　ケーキ！　甘いケーキ！

*Watery mouth already*

Hmmm.. hmm!


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My Prayer & A Student Prayer

Momma said if i stayed up late then im going to age prematurely.
But what can i do, Momma??
I'm standing on my own feet.
>w<

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A Student Prayer

This is not written by me.
It was shared by a uni friend of mine
and she said this stuck on her desk.
She thought its nice :) And so do I.

<3

Hence, I'm sharing it to you too, my dear readers.


Lord Jesus, I ask you for your help...
So that I will always know
How to be a better student
And help my knowledge grow.

Please give me understanding
So that I will clearly see
Which lessons are essential
And reveal the truth to me.

May I have the time to study
And improve my memory
So I won't forget the answers
No matter what the test may be.

Let me always keep on learning
Even when the class is done
May I use my knowledge wisely
So it works for everyone.

~The End~

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Haha!! I duper love the first and second line of the third paragraph.
You know.. Exam is around the corner.
*gulp*

>3<
God, Puhleaseeeee improve my memory, san-kyuuuuu!



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Secret Base ~What You Gave Me~

Just happened to browse through the anime song site and dwld-ed this nice song (my sis said its super duper nice but i sort of ignored her last time LOL)

Indeed its a SAD song.

Talking about 2 good friends who is going to split up and go on their own way in life. They are sad about the farewell and promised to "not forget" the good old memories they shared since all those years they've been together. And so, they believe one day in future, they will meet each other again. ;') So sadddd ryte??

Originally by ZONE but the anime uses the cover version by the voice actresses. Both are nicely sung. I bet if u watched that anime, u'll cry like u're not urself. 'Coz the anime is about a deceased girl whose soul still remained together with her childhood friends so to realize a promise which was made before her death..

So yea.. Enjoy the song! Especially dedicated to my friends (^_^)/
I'm really really glad that we still keep in touch and I wish ALL THE BEST to you, no matter where you are and what u're doing. Please continue to keep in touch with me. And I love you guys! <3

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secret base ~kimi ga kureta mono~ 10 years after ver.
Original: ZONE
Cover: Kayano Ai & Tomatsu Haruka & Hayami Saori

Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume
Ooki na kibou wasurenai
Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite

Saikou no omoide wo...

Deai wa futto shita shukan kaerimichi no kousaten de
Koe wo kakete kureta ne "Issho ni kaerou"
Boku wa terekusasou ni
Kaban de kao wo kakushi-nagara
Hontou wa totemo totemo ureshikatta yo

Aa Hanabi ga yozora kirei ni saite
Chotto setsunaku
Aa Kaze ga jikan to tomo ni nagareru
Ureshikutte tanoshikutte
Bouken mo iroiro shita ne
Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka

Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume
Ooki na kibou wasurenai
Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite

Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara
"Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo
Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara
Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...

Aa Natsuyasumi mo ato sukoshi de owatchau kara
Aa Taiyou to tsuki nakayoku shite
Kanashikutte samishikute
Kenka mo iroiro shita ne
Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka

Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara
"Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo
Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara
Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...

Totsuzen no tenkou de dou shiyou mo naku
Tegami kaku yo Denwa mo suru yo
Wasurenaide ne Boku no koto wo
Itsu made mo futari no kichi no naka

Kimi to natsu no owari Zutto hanashite
Yuuhi wo mite kara hoshi wo nagame
Kimi no hoho wo nagareta namida wa zutto wasurenai
Kimi ga saigo made ookiku te wo futte kureta koto kitto wasurenai
Da kara kou shite yume no naka de zutto eien ni...

Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume
Ooki na kibou wasurenai
Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite

Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara
"Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo
Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara
Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...

Saikou no omoide wo...

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English Translation
Secret Base ~What You Gave Me~

I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August,
we'll meet again
Such great memories...

We met in a sudden instant at the intersection on the way home
And you called out to me, and said "Let's go home together"
I was so bashful that I hid my face with my bag
But I was so very, very happy

Ah, the fireworks burst in the night sky so nicely, it kinda hurts
Ah, the wind flows by with the time

We had so many happy, fun adventures
Together in our secret base

I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again
I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Ah, summer break will end soon
Ah, I hope the sun and moon make friends

We had so many sad, lonely arguments
Together in our secret base

I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Nothing can be done about your sudden transfer
I'll write, and call
So don't forget me
Forever, in our secret base

With you at the end of summer, we talked on and on
After the setting sun, we gazed at the stars
I'll never forget the tear that flowed down your cheeks
I won't forget
The way you waved to me until the very end
So let's stay this way in our dreams, forever...

I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer
With our dreams of the future and big hopes
I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again
I knew that, until the end, you were shouting
"Thank you" from the bottom of your heart
Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard
Such great memories...

Such great memories...

<3

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School Sucks?

Hi all. I'm too busy and too frustrated
to deal with my lovely loads of coursework
and so I decided to blab here in my blog.

I so happened to saw one friend posting
about how she had no life 'coz of studying in our uni.

Then I start to recall back
"Has anybody other than my current schoolmates
ever said that they have No LiFe in their own campuses?"

And surprisingly,
NO.

Not one I can remember of.
Can you believe that??

Aww...
I used to agree that I hav no life too.

But now?
I start wondering why everybody in their college/uni dont.

LOL
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.
.
.
.

I think everybody else other than my uni mates
do have times that they felt that
there's no life for them
because they have too many to cope with.

The reasons why they don't tell the whole world
that they have no life:
(My own opinions,
just have a laugh if u looking at them now.)

1. Internet accessibility is limited.
That's why I seldom saw them online.

2. Too BUSY to even fa-ce-bo-ok.
Possible right? I'm exceptional coz im addict.

3. They have lots of life.
LOL common sense?

Okie.

I think those ppl in my uni (including me of coz)
who said they have No LiFe in school...

Is probably too comfortable in
their previous life.

When there's a lot of time to
high-tea/shopping/movie/wadeva.

I guess honeymoon years aren't for us.

At this era tht v have war, financial crisis and
dunno-when-is-it 2012 altogether.

Old people are too wise for us
that we can only compete with our youth.

So school sucks?
Better keep in mind that LiFe always SuCkS.
You dont get sucks now. You'll get it later.
.DOUBLE PORTION.

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Jar Of ♥s

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore?
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live, half-alive
Now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long
Just to feel alright
Remember how to put back
The light in my eyes

I wish I had missed
The first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back you don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

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Kowaiii X___X

I'm scared..
There's 4 BIG assignments due-ing
in juz one month time!!!
None half-done and 3 haven started yet. So dead~~
Not to mention, I have to make presentation for 3 of the reports.
And I super duper dislike presentations!! :'(

I'm applying for a short-term (approx 1 month+)
study exchange to Shanghai now.
If I passed all the application process
(they actually do interviews on the applicants, scaryy)
Then I'll be flying on end of this coming Nov.

Welllllll~ Hmm..
So it is going to be a busy year half-year for me. xP

Recently, I'm addicted to this song.

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Everytime You Kissed Me
by
Emily Bindiger

Everytime you kissed me
I trembled like a child
Gathering the roses
We sang for the hope
Your very voice is in my heartbeat
Sweeter than my dream
We were there in everlasting bloom

Roses die
The secret is inside the pain
Winds are high up on the hill
I cannot hear you
Come and hold me close
I’m shivering cold in the heart of rain
Darkness falls, I’m calling for the dawn

Silver dishes for the memories for the days gone by
Singing for the promises
Tomorrow may bring
I harbour all the old affection
Roses of the past
Darkness falls, and summer will be gone

Joys of the daylight
Shadows of the starlight
Everything was sweet by your side, my love
Ruby tears have come to me for your last words
I’m here just singing my song of woe
Waiting for you, my love

[Chorus 1]

Samia mia ii sama tia disama ia mafia

mistia ii samantia kastiria ira imenitara

[Chorus 2]

Morta asore amorita midora arta karia imifita midol

Now let my happiness sing inside my dream…….

Everytime you kissed me
My heart was in such pain
Gathering the roses
We sang of the grief
Your very voice is in my heartbeat
Sweeter than despair
We were there, in everlasting bloom

Underneath the stars
Shaded by the flowers
Kiss me in the summer day gloom, my love
You are all my pleasure, my hope and my song
I will be here dreaming in the past
Until you come
Until we close our eyes~

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Till then. :)

::FIN::

I M ALIVE!

*Breathing*
Harhh~

I wanted to go window shopping. Now.
Passing by while looking at the shop display..
..always gives me a sense of freedom.

A breather period to take a breath.

But I can't =/

Everything in my life keeps rolling.
If I keep standing, I'll be left behind.

I don't know if it's my problem or wad..
Why everybody look at me as if I'm a weirdo?
LOL And the worst thing is..
I think everybody out there is weird.
I can't understand.

I'm tired of explaining again and again.
Like a rope, pulling people around.
They are not comfortable.
And so do I !

But if I don't pull them around.
We'll shatter.
Just like a plate of beach sand..
..gone with the wind.

Or it's just my perception that..
..everyone is sand.
In fact, they are rocks.
That fear no wind..
..but water.

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I'm Alive!
(BECCA）

Nothing I say comes out right,
I can't love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.

I’m so sick of wasting time,
But nothing's moving in my mind,
Inspiration can't be found,
I get up and fall but,

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.

All my friends just run away,
When I’m having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed,
but I know there’s a reason.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

When I’m bored to death at home,
When he won't pick up the phone,
When I’m stuck in second place,
Those regrets I cant erase.

Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There’s no time for misery,
I wont feel sorry for me.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life, ohhh!

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life,
I'll live my life,
I’M ALIVE!!!!!!!

::FIN::

It's holiday again. ^^

Harlow to all!!

It's holiday. Again.
If you've been living/lived here then you'll know.
My nation is pretty famous with one thing.

There's LOADS LOTS of holidayssss!

I don't know if it's considered good or bad =="
Well~ I can't help it ryte? Haha ;)

So.. A lil update about my current life.
I've been very very very busyyy last 2 weeks.

2 Assignments/Essays, 2 presentations and a discussant session.

Despite all the hectic moments,
I (very baka to say) still go and watch TWO anime movies.
See?!?! Me lazybum. Ended up with 2 weeks of sleepless nights. =X
And suddenly now, I can't get used to my very very very free holidays. LOL
Anyhow, I'm still going to be very hectic after this 3 days hol ended.
I better quit complaining n blablabla~~

Yesterday, I went back to uni for classes.
(All my family members have holiday!!! >__< Only me don't~)
My younger sis went back with me 'coz her book is overdue-ing &
she doesnt want to pay more bucks when she came bac after holiday.

While I was doing my coursework, she said,
"Nee-chan, uni courseworks seems scaryyyyy~"

ROFL!
Yea.. It's pretty S-C-A-R-Y..
I still recalled my 1st year in university.
The feeling of cannot cope with all the coursework - "Helpless".
And also, last sem. The worst semester ever!

Nonetheless, least to say...
All the lessons I've learned had helped me to cope with present better.
I've even got the same lecturers/tutors for 2 of my subjects.
At least I know (probably a lil) their expectation and so ;)

And not to forget, it's Raya today!
Selamat Hari Raya! Maaf Zahir dan Batin~
Also, Happy holiday to allll my friends who have holidays.
Of course!! All The Best to those who don't~!

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The pathway to ambition

Recently, I've read a post from a uni friend of mine.

She said,
"Crème de la crème.
I have to be that.
No matter what.
I need. I want. I will be that."

<Crème de la crème>
It means
"Something superlative."
"People of the highest social level.
"The very best."

I was quite astonished by her determination.

Aiming High.

Not that I look down on her
but in fact it's the exact opposite.

I actually wished to have that kind of determination
in which I'm lacking every bit of everything to be.

To be the very best, frankly it's very difficult.
It was never easy to be different and yet aiming to be the best?

I know myself good enough. Be real.
I dont actually wish to be a very excelled person.
It actually means that I have to give up a lot.

Trade-offs.

Looking back at what I dreamt when I was young about my future,
I think I haven even reach 25% of my ambition.

I start wondering what have I done for my past 2 decades?
Planning never works for long run.
There's always alternatives and bundle of choices.

Que sera sera.
Whatever will be will be.

When things happen, can I really go against it and
stay firm with my initial decision?

The pathway to my ambition is clear when I was young.
Now that I've came all the way here.
And I came to realized what I saw at that moment it's
the top of the mountain from a faraway land which is visible.

Back then, I never know that I have to climb up in the forest.
To reach the top.

As the higher I goes, the road became more steep and narrow.
Eventually I'll come to where Frost's once were.

~ The Road Not Taken ~
Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Let's just hope that by then,
I have the luck to pick the road I "want-to-take".

'Coz you see, there's nothing called
"Later I come back and choose again."
in L-I-F-E

And now, what I should be doing is
to get the hot fresh bachelor cert outta here.
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::FIN::

ღ Love Life ღ

I remembered last time during an outing
with bunch of old friends of mine, I asked one of them:

"You've bf?"
Typical girls' talk Q&A session.

She answered no.

Then I realized for so many years we've been together as close friends
and none of us in our group have ever had love life before.

So I told her something I came across when I was in last semester.



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There's one girl I saw in my school.
She looks very much like an "engineering" type of girl.
(No offense, it's just that she gave me that kind of impression).

A bit nerdy, average-looking, long sleeve and good old pair of jeans,
quite short and a little fleshy..

Walking by her side, there's a guy. I guessed is her boyfriend.
Tall, muscular, macho-type of guy though he's bald.

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I told her that scene gave me a silent slap on my face.

And then yesterday, I was slapped. Again.
This time it's a heavy one.



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There's this blood-ties of mine.
Sent a LOVE LETTER to someone.
And that someone sent back a reply said,
"I love you too."

What The Hell???
They are both aged primary 5 OKAY!!?!
(Some of you called year 5 maybe)

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What the hell is going on now?
I've been living for nearly 2 decades and ends up enjoying my pure life.

There goes this living for one decade kiddo sent a love letter
and nearly ends up being called to the principal's office.

Haix.
I'm so OUTDATED.


::FIN::

p/s Waliaoo ehh... =="