The title looks a bit like foreign language if you don't understand Rojak language. *grin*
Hi blog! I'm here again~ Implying that I'm too free to do nothing. Currently I'm no more a student, not yet a graduate, and unemployed - a michong (米虫). It's very sienz (Hokkien: boring) staying like a michong... Sadly, I'm gonna live like this until I have further plans. Whatever plan will do, as long as I want it.
Talking about plans, actually I do did have a holiday to-do-planning. Nonetheless, as days had passed, none of them seem like coming true. LOL A lot of factors involved and srsly I doesn't want to discuss 'em here. The main issue of all is, I'm doing myself a lip service. Didn't put effort more than that to execute the plan. Thus, I envy my siblings, they seems....busy.
Pardon my stupid complaint/bragging, emptiness can drive me somewhat mad sometimes, especially late at night and I can't push myself to sleep early (and be a good kid). [Hey! I ain't a kid anymore. So sad~ Whatever..] Forget about this after you read, I'm used to be be ignored anyway. (you must have thought you wasted your time reading, in fact I'm wasting mine to write this lol Fair enough? I guess.) Haha..
Okay, something for sharing in case someone decided to throw me rotten eggs and stones for the mumbling above. I watched this anime <Kids on the Slope> over my SWOT (aka study for exam) week. I found its OST truly amusing, the jazz pieces impressed me, if I was given one word to describe it, it would be love <3
This song is one of my favorites found in the OST - <Lullaby of Birdland>. The original song is indeed an oldies (very old one because the anime set its time at the 60s) but this covered version is so beautiful! *hearts* The singer is a Japanese but I guess you won't figure it out if you had only listen to the song.
Now, sit back Now, load, sit back and enjoy the song. :)
Seems like I just activated my blog recently. *hum*
I tends to come here when I'm feeling down. Warui nee.. Sorry for the negativity. Don't blame a sick people will 'ya~ *cough cough* The phlegm residing in my lungs is giving me a hell lot of pain and trouble. Anything fun is not fun anymore with this condition. Perhaps the one up there in heaven was trying to tell me that I did not suffer enough. Hah! Or that is my body cannot withstand this freedom.. Darn. That's why all these happening when I can finally had some peace..
Losing my voice is not something very favorable. Feel so bad when I can't even finish singing a single song without coughing... That's one of my favorite routines in life! How cruel is that... :'( sob sob~ You know how people tends to think too much when they have nothing to do. I'm fit in that bunch right now. My brain seems to degrade as well. *groan* That's the price I paid for being free. XD
Another thing is I'm always fit in with lonely. I'm becoming more and more friendly with it nowadays. Shikatanai yo ne.. My sisters have their own boys (and other stuffs like work & study) to deal with -- with the exception of my kid sis who's cool about her "still child"-like life. I can hardly ask them to do anything with me. All my friends seems to be enjoying (or not, suffering) their hectic dailies. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing, my friend (in case you're reading), not a single negative idea is intended in any means. You see, I'm just implying that i'm naturally a lone-conductor, and I too enjoy the moments & bits of being alone. ;)
The jazz music playin' in my radio, the sound of me typing, the aroma of my favorite tea, the light shined through the window, the feel of me being the only existence.... (brake sound)
Too bad.. maybe I just don't have the right atmosphere in my house. None is happening at the lone moment. Instead... =="
The noise as a result of neighbor's house renovation, the endless argues from the Taiwanese drama (mom's watching), the smell of owwhh... (strong) AAA-grade Durian (dad's eating), the light...ning and depressed-looking sky, the only existence...???
Forget about it please. *roll eyes*
Remember I said I enjoy being alone? Add on!! When the atmosphere is there. This is a little bit about science, conductor only conducts when the right medium is present.
You know.. it will not turn out like what you had expected..
You know.. it is not going to be what you desired..
You just know.. in your heart.. in your mind..
And you know.. you're smart enough to tell..
However...
Deep in the heart core of yours.. there's still a little thing glowing..
Very faintly twinkling.. just a small dim light called "h-o-p-e"..
So dull and so gloomy.. that you hardly sees it, feels it..
And you stupidly relies on it.. Clinging on the poor thing..
The chances for you to hold on to it till the end is.. less than 1%..
Eventually...
Reality strikes you like a lightning.. Cruel enough to kill it..
The poor little thing ended up.. Bursting like the weak bubble..
Tell your heart not to cry.. Tell your mind not to let the tears down..
Tell yourself not to breakdown.. But you knew it's not working..
Fool!
What use to cry over something that you've already know?!
What use to feel sad, bitter, melancholic and broken-hearted?!
Seriously sick of all the dramas in you!! STOPPPP!!!
Pause all the fairytales you have! And play the FACT.
Fine!
The mind still sting.. even if you knew the ending.. The heart still bleed.. realizing the fact is a bloody stab..
You may.. Cried, scream & do anything that turns you into a mad man..
Cool down.. Embraced yourself & accept destiny as it had fated to be.
I officially got myself out of the in-between-teen-n-adult period and now a purely Otono now.
It was the day after my last exam in my three-years uni life.
Now I'm not a student anymoreee.. How weird to think so..
You see, I've been a student like "forever" (since three+) and..
Biung~ Time flies like nobody's business..
When I realized it, I'm free from my student title already.
So.. After the stressful session, I went to Genting with my mom n kid sis. Then I went in to a legal casino for the first time in my life. Cool not? (In case you're wondering, no.. I didn't gamble. *Ii ko desu* I just went in to register for a membership card.) When I tried to go in, the staff stopped me for my ID card. And he looked at the card for some moment as if trying to calculate my age. Rofl~
Then, my mom very -happily- dumped me and my youngest sis to the theme park. Of course, it's something I promised her to do. Keke.. But it was t.i.r.i.n.g....
Luckily, my sis was good enough for not giving me trouble all day long. (or maybe I'm stern enough so she don't dare to do so.. Hiak hiak~)
I'm saying this 'cz u know how small kids can throw tantrums~ (And I seriously cannot stand when a child did this to me. *fire*)
LOLL
We ended up playing quite a number of rides despite our painful, tired legs.. One thing I don't quite like for the theme park to place their attractions too far away. Hard enough for us to find where is the waiting queue. (Especially the indoor park).
Overall it was quite joyful but duh.. This is Msia. The experience definitely differs from the one in JP. Omo.
Most of the staffs were so unfriendly! and they were so blackfaced! (in chinese). I'm so ashamed as a local when some receptionists cannot even speak basic english. =.=|||
The "best" part of the day where I got really heated up is
when I asked for directions, a very "act smart" staff simply told me a WRONG place! Hey! I'm not that freak expecting the staff to definitely know the place but HOW DARE YOU ASK ME TO GO TO A FREAKING DESERT?!! Just tell ppl kindly that you don't know la. Whole day mood ruined by this moron staff. The worst thing is I brought my kid sis running herenthere like 2 phychos. Gomen nee imouto ><
The next day, my mom wanted to follow her friends to some temple walk (which I'm against, all temples look the same to me lolx) but v couldn't catch the shuttle. So plan cancelled. Then, I managed to steal some time for a girl "must do" - S.h.o.p.p.i.n.g.!! There were SALES ongoing! How could I miss that?! HAHA!
Life's been kind of busy for me. Even though my course units had been reduced slightly, it really doesn't mean that my life would be any easier with the same old heavy courseworks all came together...
Plus, I'm working part time since I thought my uni timetable was kinda loose. Which means even less time spent at home and rot.. (It's a good thing though.. Managed to earn some pocket money while studying.)
That contributes to the reason why you (my bloggie) had been experiencing quite a bit of lonesome this half a year. It's okay.. I know you don't cry anyway (tougher than me :P).
Now that I think of, your big day is coming!! So happened it's going to be my last day of バイトライフ as well.
And then school will commence (Again). I shall appreciate it this time. It's, nevertheless, my last semester already.
Time flies, isn't it? Just a week ago, I attended a friend's farewell. Farewell farewell.. Even though it sounded like "Ohh! It's just one year thing"~ It ended up piercing my heart (a little) that it will be hard for us to keep in touch as usual now. Quite melancholic.. Thinking of all my friends since primary, secondary, college, uni...
All of us grew up and please continue to grow well, I wish.
Nothing's gonna stay forever but I've always hope everything changes for the better.
And oooo... I think I've never posted something about my Nihon trip isn't it? It might be late to do so.. (like about 2 months ago already) But duh! I don't really mind. So you (my bloggie) shouldn't TOO! Muahahahahaha!!! :D
See? I cannot slack. Once slack, forever slacking.. haha! Resulted "The Abandoned Bloggie".
I'm truly SORRY my bloggie~ Mianhae! >3<
Okay, enough for my apology. Just a simple update here to my readers. I wondered if there's any nowadays... I dont even know what's everybody doing now~ *sob* I felt a lil bad. I think i'm no good in be-friend someone/everyone.
Keep in touch with everyone sounded easy. Why is it so hard for me? Well... I think it's my personality. People tends to see me like i dont care them eh? Actually I'm that type who *stalks* people's update rather than ask them directly. Now you knows. *winks*
I've been in an short term exchange program during summer semester. Guess I dont actually have to describe much here 'coz I did posted lotsa pics on fb. And DO look at the captions!!! Or else u'll have no idea bout my life in SH. Okie dokie?
CNY had past... Valentines Day too... Only a week or so left school is starting again. Omigawd!!! I'm already in my final year now.. Hmm.. That means~ I gotta start thinking bout my future - career/study/blabla.. WHICH IS SUPER DUPER BOTHERSOME! I wonder is it too late for me to do an internship~
LIFE~ Y U NO BE MORE EASY FOR ME? Gahhhhhh! X____x A piece of dead meat thinking about bothersome stuffs. Lets pray i'll get some idea for it while my study roll on later :3
Bye for now. Sorry for this no-head-no-tail (:meaningless) post.
Sad thing is, I think I screwed up my last paper >w<
Happy thing is, I regain my stress-less moments!
So yea.. Nyways, I'm not talking about my mood today. I've got enough "mood" so far.. XD
I did promised to write about this Korean variety show which has been a major cause for my procrastination and my NO.1 stress-reliever recently =)
Reonning Maen /런닝맨 / Running Man
From left to right Above: Lee Gwang-soo, Yoo Jae-Suk, Song Joong-Ki, Ji Suk-Jin, Kim Jong-Kook Below: Song Ji-Hyo, Kang Gary, Lizzy, Ha-Ha
Hosted by Yoo Jae Suk along with other cast members. I can't recognize most of the members initially. I just so happened to come across some of the SNSD's videos and found the RM clips on Youtube. The clip is too short so I went googled it to watch the full version. It sooo interesting and so I couldnt stop streaming other episodes.
Another reason that induce me watching this show is Yoo Jae Suk. I've known him from Family Outing and since then, I'm so impressed by his gag show~ Too funny HAHAHAHAAAA!!
Sorry, overly excited again. Btw, now I'm officially a fan of MC Yoo :)
That's why I totally dislike Sparta Kook~ Kim Jong Kook. LOL I know it's just a show. But I'm totally biased towards Yooruce Willis* lo (*nickname of MC Yoo in games). And people!! RM Episode 13 is just AWESOMEEEE and so epic!
If you haven watch, please go watch it! It's my BEST episode <3 Yoo Jae Suk incredibly escaped from the arrest of Sparta Kook and complete the mission on his own! I went so crazily happy after I watched that episode~ BIG LOVE. Daebak!!
Yippie!! I better utilize my 2 weeks holiday before summer semester starts. Woots!! Movies and popcorns! Here I comes!!!! Of course, not forgetting my lovey apple green Dell =))
I'm so damn SAD bcoz the assignment that cost 40% internally and I got only a Credit.
It's not like I do last minute work or wadeva. I finished mine much earlier than the due date. Summore I let the tutor checked on it He said "Good! Good!" and what's THIS?
A CREDIT??
All my hardwork for this whole semester just a CREDIT? Don't tell me I'm "kiasu" (in Hokkien) or what.. I dont effing CARE what's others' marks are. Like SERIOUSLY.
If the credit is like near 70 also I can accept la bcause its a group assignment and I admit that the assignment presentation is not that "aligned"~
But what the hell is that? It's just 4 marks above PASS range! I effing wanna eff people. *Sorry my mood not very good today*
2 finals papers taken. And both cannot finish on time. The second one even "better" than the first. 15 minutes left, I'm still working on the second question. There is like FIVE compulsory questions in total okay?! Wtf is going on with me?????????
Haiz... Haizz.... Girl, Imma a second year going to be third. Why is my month so not "soon" (in Hokkien) to me? Never happened for the past 19+ years. I cant even sleep for one minute the day b4 my paper. 2 papers. so 2 days. How do I live? Aigoooooooooooooooo... (in Korean)
Just happened to browse through the anime song site and dwld-ed this nice song (my sis said its super duper nice but i sort of ignored her last time LOL)
Indeed its a SAD song.
Talking about 2 good friends who is going to split up and go on their own way in life. They are sad about the farewell and promised to "not forget" the good old memories they shared since all those years they've been together. And so, they believe one day in future, they will meet each other again. ;') So sadddd ryte??
Originally by ZONE but the anime uses the cover version by the voice actresses. Both are nicely sung. I bet if u watched that anime, u'll cry like u're not urself. 'Coz the anime is about a deceased girl whose soul still remained together with her childhood friends so to realize a promise which was made before her death..
So yea.. Enjoy the song! Especially dedicated to my friends (^_^)/ I'm really really glad that we still keep in touch and I wish ALL THE BEST to you, no matter where you are and what u're doing. Please continue to keep in touch with me. And I love you guys! <3
secret base ~kimi ga kureta mono~ 10 years after ver. Original: ZONE Cover: Kayano Ai & Tomatsu Haruka & Hayami Saori
Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume Ooki na kibou wasurenai Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Saikou no omoide wo...
Deai wa futto shita shukan kaerimichi no kousaten de Koe wo kakete kureta ne "Issho ni kaerou" Boku wa terekusasou ni Kaban de kao wo kakushi-nagara Hontou wa totemo totemo ureshikatta yo
Aa Hanabi ga yozora kirei ni saite Chotto setsunaku Aa Kaze ga jikan to tomo ni nagareru Ureshikutte tanoshikutte Bouken mo iroiro shita ne Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka
Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume Ooki na kibou wasurenai Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...
Aa Natsuyasumi mo ato sukoshi de owatchau kara Aa Taiyou to tsuki nakayoku shite Kanashikutte samishikute Kenka mo iroiro shita ne Futari no himitsu no kichi no naka
Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...
Totsuzen no tenkou de dou shiyou mo naku Tegami kaku yo Denwa mo suru yo Wasurenaide ne Boku no koto wo Itsu made mo futari no kichi no naka
Kimi to natsu no owari Zutto hanashite Yuuhi wo mite kara hoshi wo nagame Kimi no hoho wo nagareta namida wa zutto wasurenai Kimi ga saigo made ookiku te wo futte kureta koto kitto wasurenai Da kara kou shite yume no naka de zutto eien ni...
Kimi to natsu no owari shourai no yume Ooki na kibou wasurenai Juunen-go no hachigatsu mata deaeru no wo shinjite
Kimi ga saigo made kokoro kara "Arigatou" sakende 'ta koto shitte 'ta yo Namida wo koraete egao de sayounara Setsunai yo ne Saikou no omoide wo...
English Translation Secret Base ~What You Gave Me~
I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer With our dreams of the future and big hopes I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again Such great memories...
We met in a sudden instant at the intersection on the way home And you called out to me, and said "Let's go home together" I was so bashful that I hid my face with my bag But I was so very, very happy
Ah, the fireworks burst in the night sky so nicely, it kinda hurts Ah, the wind flows by with the time
We had so many happy, fun adventures Together in our secret base
I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer With our dreams of the future and big hopes I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again I knew that, until the end, you were shouting "Thank you" from the bottom of your heart Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard Such great memories...
Ah, summer break will end soon Ah, I hope the sun and moon make friends
We had so many sad, lonely arguments Together in our secret base
I knew that, until the end, you were shouting "Thank you" from the bottom of your heart Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard Such great memories...
Nothing can be done about your sudden transfer I'll write, and call So don't forget me Forever, in our secret base
With you at the end of summer, we talked on and on After the setting sun, we gazed at the stars I'll never forget the tear that flowed down your cheeks I won't forget The way you waved to me until the very end So let's stay this way in our dreams, forever...
I'll never forget being with you at the end of summer With our dreams of the future and big hopes I believe that ten years later in August, we'll meet again I knew that, until the end, you were shouting "Thank you" from the bottom of your heart Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard Such great memories...
I know I can't take one more step towards you Cause all that's waiting is regret And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore? You lost the love I loved the most
I learned to live, half-alive And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are? Running 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Who do you think you are?
I hear you're asking all around If I am anywhere to be found I have grown too strong To ever fall back in your arms
I've learned to live, half-alive Now you want me one more time
Who do you think you are? Running 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Who do you think you are?
Dear, it took so long Just to feel alright Remember how to put back The light in my eyes
I wish I had missed The first time that we kissed 'Cause you broke all your promises And now you're back you don't get to get me back
Who do you think you are? Running 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul So don't come back for me Don't come back at all
And who do you think you are? Running 'round leaving scars Collecting your jar of hearts And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold From the ice inside your soul Don't come back for me Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are?
I'm scared.. There's 4 BIG assignments due-ing in juz one month time!!! None half-done and 3 haven started yet. So dead~~ Not to mention, I have to make presentation for 3 of the reports. And I super duper dislike presentations!! :'(
I'm applying for a short-term (approx 1 month+) study exchange to Shanghai now. If I passed all the application process (they actually do interviews on the applicants, scaryy) Then I'll be flying on end of this coming Nov.
Welllllll~ Hmm.. So it is going to be a busy year half-year for me. xP
Everytime you kissed me I trembled like a child Gathering the roses We sang for the hope Your very voice is in my heartbeat Sweeter than my dream We were there in everlasting bloom
Roses die The secret is inside the pain Winds are high up on the hill I cannot hear you Come and hold me close I’m shivering cold in the heart of rain Darkness falls, I’m calling for the dawn
Silver dishes for the memories for the days gone by Singing for the promises Tomorrow may bring I harbour all the old affection Roses of the past Darkness falls, and summer will be gone
Joys of the daylight Shadows of the starlight Everything was sweet by your side, my love Ruby tears have come to me for your last words I’m here just singing my song of woe Waiting for you, my love
Everytime you kissed me My heart was in such pain Gathering the roses We sang of the grief Your very voice is in my heartbeat Sweeter than despair We were there, in everlasting bloom
Underneath the stars Shaded by the flowers Kiss me in the summer day gloom, my love You are all my pleasure, my hope and my song I will be here dreaming in the past Until you come Until we close our eyes~
I wanted to go window shopping. Now. Passing by while looking at the shop display.. ..always gives me a sense of freedom.
A breather period to take a breath.
But I can't =/
Everything in my life keeps rolling. If I keep standing, I'll be left behind.
I don't know if it's my problem or wad.. Why everybody look at me as if I'm a weirdo? LOL And the worst thing is.. I think everybody out there is weird. I can't understand.
I'm tired of explaining again and again. Like a rope, pulling people around. They are not comfortable. And so do I !
But if I don't pull them around. We'll shatter. Just like a plate of beach sand.. ..gone with the wind.
Or it's just my perception that.. ..everyone is sand. In fact, they are rocks. That fear no wind.. ..but water.
Nothing I say comes out right,
I can't love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.
I’m so sick of wasting time,
But nothing's moving in my mind,
Inspiration can't be found,
I get up and fall but,
I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you'll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!
Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.
All my friends just run away,
When I’m having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed,
but I know there’s a reason.
I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!
When I’m bored to death at home,
When he won't pick up the phone,
When I’m stuck in second place,
Those regrets I cant erase.
Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There’s no time for misery,
I wont feel sorry for me.
I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life, ohhh!
I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad
is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I'll sleep when I die,
I'll live my life,
I'll live my life,
I’M ALIVE!!!!!!!
